After the introduction of the weighted vest, life for Lachlan slowly improved, we were to learn that we had to overcome the sensory issues before we could move forward, as a parent I was to initially fight and question the need for sensory chews and deep pressure massage, perhaps I was still in denial, I just didn’t want my wee man to stand out from the crowd. Our home visiting teacher gently pushed the issue of chewies, she was right Lachlan needs to chew, the first silicone pendant chewies I bought were destroyed in hours, our OT produced some awful looking ones which were like coiled phone cable in vivid colours, I hated them even more than the silicone pendant ones, but they worked and seem to last, I hated the look though, especially as Lachlan likes to chew on one side with chewie just hanging there, I hated going out and about and folks staring, I felt we were often stared at because Lachlan looks too big for his buggy, the chewies in my mind only made this worse. In time I realised though that it is folks who have the problem, I accepted that if it helped Lachlan live in our world and eased his suffering then so be it, I could live with chewies. After Easter Lachlan had 1:1 support at playgroup so I no longer had to stay, this was great on one front as I got a break but not so great as I had no idea what Lachlan had been up to and if he was happy, Lachlan was not to happy at me leaving initially either and it hurt to leave him crying, even knowing that staff would phone if he didn’t settle after 5 minutes. We continued our battle for 1:1 funding for initially three sessions from the August, I felt a bit disappointed that was all we were likely to get as Lachlan would be three therefore entitled to a funded place which meant 5 afternoons in theory but without 1:1 that couldn’t happen. Lachlan started three afternoons a week in August and quickly settled and was happy to be left, so much so that come October he upped his sessions to four afternoons and then after Christmas the full five. The funding was finally resolved in November something that I am still annoyed about, no parent should be left wondering if her child can go to nursery the following week as the initial funding had ran out.